Just Because You Can…..

Doesn’t mean you should.

As a family practitioner, my scope of practice is pretty broad. I can deliver babies, do GYN procedures, and even perform minor surgery. Technically my license states that I can practice medicine and surgery in the state of New York. Perhaps, I could do an appendectomy? I’ve heard of country doctors having to do these kind of surgical procedures because the nearest hospitals is miles away. But I would never do anything like that because I’m not comfortable and I live in a big city.

I feel in life, especially in living with lupus, I am faced with the dilemma of deciding if I should do something just because I can. I can go out late for drinks and dancing, but am I willing to be stuck in bed achy and exhausted the next day?

I can work full time, but would it be at the cost of my health and sanity? I remember when I did work full time. It was so stressful, I was constantly exhausted, and every day felt like a battle. I was constantly agitated and always had some kind of lupus symptom. I made a lot more money, but was it really worth it?

I can go on a strenuous hike or skiing while on vacation, but am I going to be in pain for the rest of the week. Will it keep me from enjoying the rest of my trip?

I guess my issue is that I hate limiting myself. I hate the idea of lupus holding me back. I like to believe that I can do anything I set my mind to, and encourage others to do the same.

But sometimes I just have to be realistic. I am not limited in what I can do. I just realize that maybe I don’t need to do everything. It’s my choice, and I’m okay with that.

3 thoughts on “Just Because You Can…..

  1. Know what irritates me? The knowledge, the remembering, that a few years ago I could do simple things without having to decide if it was worth the price I’d pay later. It’s extremely frustrating when the brain wants something, the spirit is willing and the flesh is oh so weak.

    I know I have to cope, I know I have to adjust. I just don’t have to like it. And, I don’t.

    1. I know what you mean. I’ve felt that a lot, but I’ve learned to accept it and be OK. And I think part of that is because I’ve had to give up a lot of things that I used to be able to do because of my career. I’m used to it.I’ve accepted that there is a change in my life, and maybe there are a lot of things that I used to do but can’t do anymore, but there are new things I can do. God has given me an opportunity through lupus to force myself to slow down and fix my priorities, and to be able to understand and therefore care my patients better. I think it helps to discover new things to do.

  2. My “slow-down” has coincided greatly with my age. Now closer to 45 than to 40, I am acutely aware of how daily choices have to be made to conserve limited energy.

    I am lucky that everything didn’t really crash for me until my late 30s. However, looking back, I might be in better health now if I had only listened to what my body was telling me for many, many years prior. “Run hard, ignore the pain, and then crash” probably wasn’t a good game plan. Wish I could have a “re-do” for a few of those years : )

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