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Inspiration from the Garden

So as many of you know, I’ve started a little garden in pots in my backyard. I have some thyme, dill, parsley, oregano, basil, and my favorite is the red chili pepper plant. Most of my plants had been doing OK, but the pepper plant always looked so sad. The leaves would just droop and wilt, and ¬†look completely depressed.

After consulting google, I decided that maybe my plants just needed more water. So, I started watering more frequently, and soaking the soil. The herbs started growing and becoming more vibrant it color, and so did the pepper plant, but the next day the leaves on the pepper plant would start to sag again.

Then my parents came to visit me at my new place, and let me tell you, my father is a skilled gardener. He has all sorts of veggies in the garden as well as guava, mango, and papaya trees. Every time I come home, he’s bringing in a vegetable for mom to cook or slicing up some ripe fruit for a snack. He took one look at my garden and made some changes.

First he moved the plants into a shadier spot. The instructions on the label said they needed full sun, but apparently the direct sunlight was too harsh. Then he moved a couple of them, including the pepper plant, into larger pots because they needed room to spread their roots.Finally he added more soil to the pots, filling them with nutrient rich dirt.

I hadn’t had much hope for them, as I would be leaving for almost a week, but I was greatly surprised. My husband had only had the chance to water them once during that time, and I prayed they hadn’t died from dehydration.When I got home and walked into the backyard I was amazed. The plants were bright and green, and the pepper plant was even starting to grow a little chili.

This made me think a lot about life. I’ve been depressed before, the weight of my lupus and job heavy on my body and heart. I’ve felt the hopelessness of feeling like things will never get better. But little changes can make a huge difference. Removing yourself from toxic situations, changing your environment, surrounding yourself with friends who support you and give you room to grow, feeding yourself with food that nourishes you physically, emotionally, and spiritually can make an impact on your life. And with care from a loving Father, you can turn your life around.

Testing God

I had dinner with a friend last night who is a certified nurse assistant. We were talking about my lupus as I have been feeling really fatigued recently and my latest bloodwork came back with some abnormalities. She listened patiently which I appreciated, and then told me to fast and pray and God would heal me.

She told me a story about how she had a patient whom she cared for at home. A woman with terminal cancer and a prognosis to live for only two weeks. My friend cared for her and prayed with her and convinced her to stop all her medications. When the lady went to see her doctor, her doctor said her labs came back better. She ended up living for six more years.

These miraculous stories inspire me and worry me at the same time. I whole heartedly believe that God can heal anyone of anything, but as a trained physician I don’t believe in discontinuing all medication or stopping all treatment. I’ve had several patients refuse medication, telling me that God will take care of them, and they don’t need drugs. I’m impressed by their faith, but concerned about their eagerness to stop life-saving treatment.

I guess the way I see it is that God has the ultimate power to heal by faith, but that doesn’t mean we should test Him. I believe God created different herbs and plants so that we can make medications to help people. I also believe God gave us special talents to become doctors,healers, nurses, and scientists, and He uses us to do His work. These are my thoughts, what are yours?

My Story: Part 8- Faith

I think the the part of my life most affected by my diagnosis with lupus was my faith. At the time before my diagnosis, I was on a roll. I was doing really well at work, was in the running for chief resident, on my way to becoming a licensed physician. I had a really awesome boyfriend and flourishing relationship. My body was getting in shape and I was confident. I felt good about myself and my life. I felt powerful, and I felt like my life was finally in complete control. I was self reliant and could do everything on my own. I didn’t need anything or anyone because I had it all.

But then it happened. I was diagnosed with lupus and my whole world came crashing down. I no longer was in control of my body or my life. And that’s when I realized I needed God.

Now, I grew up Christian and attended church weekly for the most part. Religion was always a part of my life, but it was something I just did out of habit, maybe even out of guilt or obligation. It was never really a personal thing. There were times when I had felt close to God, but it wasn’t constant. It was only during times of need.

And now another time of need presented itself. But this time it was very different. I had never had an issue in my life before that would cause such a drastic and complete change in my life. And here I was completely lost, and life was completely out of my hands. But it was in God’s hands. He was in control. It didn’t mean that life would be easy, but now I knew I had Someone who cared for me and could heal me.

Through the blessings and the trials my faith in God grew. I would like to say that my faith is and was always strong, but that’s not the truth. As I got better, I would start to feel
like I didn’t need God again. Or when I was feeling really sick or hopeless, I would doubt God’s love and plan for my life. But as time has passed, and I have witnessed the healing and the love, I have learned to trust in God and His purpose for my life.

I know that we all have different beliefs, but I wanted to share mine because it’s such an important part of my life. It is not my intention to push my beliefs on anyone else. My personal relationship with God has formed the person I am today and has developed my perspective on life.

For those of us who are believers, I think it’s very important to be strong in our faith and continue our support for each other in prayers. If anyone would like to be added to the Prayer Corner, please let me know.